It’s real tempting sometimes for me to turn on the TV and watch Oprah or even Dr. Phil, but what do these have to do with me? My beliefs? My purpose? My being??!! Absolutely NOTHING. So then I start to think what is it that glamorizes the life of people who are completely lost and unsuccessful in this life and certainly in the next if they don’t smart up? I don’t have the answer, and I can sit here and blame Shaitan/Satan. But didn’t Allah give me a will? He did give me, little speck me, a will to defy the nonsense in this world. It will be me, not my parents nor my husband, which will be accountable for what I do-see-hear-touch, or indulge in. So my constant struggle, my jihad, is just that. My life is supposed to be a representation of the path Allah has established for humanity, and the path that Prophet Muhammad (peace be upon him) has explained, and the path that the 4 best of women of all of humanity, Maryam: mother of Jesus (pbuh), Khadija: wife of Prophet Muhammad (pbuh) Essya: wife of the wicked Pharoah, and Fatima: daughter of Prophet Muhammad(pbuh). May Allah grant them the best for their pious and righteous ways.
But all of this is not about me, its about repenting. We are insignificant without Allah. We are not better than the next. One who has strong faith in Allah may lose it all in a second, and one who is a Kaafir, an atheist, may end up with the strongest of faith. It’s happened in history, and it happens all the time. For this reason, we all have to rectify ourselves, no matter how holier than thou we may be, or think we are! Another point is that although it could be that a bad situation we partook in is a learning situation, this does not mean we should say, what many people today say “I don’t regret anything of my past because I learned from it.” I don’t know, I don’t think this is right. It’s cool to admit our faults, but it’s not ok to proclaim that without our faults we wouldn’t have been guided. Because we don’t have a clue as to what or wouldn’t have happened. Just like we don’t have a clue as to what state of faith, or lack of we will die in. Maybe its through those faults that we felt weak and felt we needed to ask Allah for guidance and therefore supplicated for Him, so we got it. But this does not justify us saying that our past is something we should credit for getting to the point of further faith or closer to Truth. I don’t even know if that makes sense to whoever of you is reading this. All I mean is, to acknowledge you’ve done something wrong is the first part in solving it. Whether Muslim or not, be reminded to “return”, to repent, to seek Tawbeh. Allah is the Most-Merciful. Surely, with repenting comes guideance.
Enough of my rambling, and check out this article I’ve linked to the title of this post.
"And turn you all together in repentence to Allah O Believers, that you may be successful." »[Qur'an, 24:31] In the Quran, Allah also tells us: «"Surely Allah loves those who turn unto Him in repentence and loves those who purify themselves."» [Qur'an, 2: 222]
May Allah forgive all of us and may we be amongst the inhabitants of Jannah. Ameen.